Lyrics from A Flower Grows In Stone (2003)
1. Something So Beautiful
2. Nothing Soothes Me
3. Dead End
4. Higher Ground
5. Flawless
6. Radioactive
7. Snowed In
8. Broken Arrow
9. Distraction
10. Laika
11. Distill
12. Big City Boy
13. Breathe Again
14. The One
something so beautiful
by Kyler England
all that you are * all that you’ve been * all that you wanted to forget * you bury deep * where no one can see * and hope you can live with the regret * of holding your breath * searching yourself for a peace that could mend your broken home * somehow you defied all reason and rhyme * you’re like a flower that grows in stone * how could something so beautiful come from somewhere so unkind * you must have known when you had grown you could leave it all behind * and now you’re something so beautiful * now you are something so beautiful * a single grain * a water stain * things that time cannot erase * a tone of voice * a crashing noise * the stinging of hands upon your face * how could something so beautiful come from somewhere so unkind * you must have known when you had grown you could leave it all behind * CHORUS * black and blue lost its hold on you * you made it through, you’re still alive, you’re still alive * CHORUS
nothing soothes me
by Kyler England
i’m in one of my moods today * all that language and nothing to say * restless armies march in my heart * the soldiers shoot down my words before they even start * but then you come to my defense and rescue me * nothing soothes me like you do * your smile heals all wounds * nothing moves me like you do * your touch sends me to the moon * i got nothing to prove to you * besides you already know where my faults run through * if i could i would stay here forever just me and you * i got sympathy for a deer in the lights * how cruel that fear can freeze you right when they got you in their sites * enemy shots stop me dead in my tracks * i’m paralyzed by imagined pain before i can react * but then you come to my defense and rescue me * CHORUS * and leave the whole world behind * you’re all i need to survive * CHORUS
dead end
by Kyler England
you’re never where you want to be * your demons keep you restlessly * searching for a silent place * you tell me that you need some space * and you don’t look back * you are running from something with a stronger pull than my love for you * drifting farther, its getting harder for me to reach you * still i’m hopeful that you’ll come through * still i’m hopeful that you’ll come to your senses before you dead end * you hardly look me in the eyes * you wait for me to criticize * you’re guilty but you won’t confess * you pack up all that you possess * and you don’t look back * CHORUS * crash and burn * try to outrun the hurt * you will make them learn, make them notice * CHORUS
higher ground
by Kyler England
it’s not because i’d like to forget you * or bury your memory deep inside * i used to die a little everyday * but in the end it’s just the will to survive * what else can i do? * cause when the walls come tumbling down * and the waters rush in all around * i gotta get myself to higher ground * lest i drown * late at night that’s when i miss you most * your image is branded behind my eyes * in translucent dreams you drift through like a ghost * i can’t let you in and god knows i can’t ignore * your hold over me * CHORUS * but no one tells you that it’s gonna hurt this long * so go ahead and build your shell * to hide inside when the waters start to rise * but you may as well * cause when the walls come tumbling down * and the waters rush in all around * you gotta get yourself to higher ground * lest you drown
flawless
by Kyler England
you painted me prettier in your head * rearranged the words that i said to you * but i can’t live up to that flawless love you wanted me to be * can you live with that? * i’m gonna sleep till morning * will you hold me while i dream * that nothing’s broken that we can’t fix * and you’ll still be there when i wake * i’m like a captive finally set free * your every imperfection seems like gold to me * but you held me up to that flawless love you wanted me to be * and i know i let you down * CHORUS * i know your perfect glass is shattered * but tell me does it really matter? * are you gonna throw it all away? * come on and sleep till morning * let me hold you while you dream * that nothing’s broken that we can’t fix * and i’ll still be there when you wake * i’ll still be there when you wake * i’ll always be there when you wake * you painted me prettier in your head
radioactive
by Kyler England
objects are closer than they appear * because they are two dimensional * i’ll alter my vision for mass deception * with limited depth perception * i’ll let them melt me down * charge me up * cause i wanna be * radioactive * it won’t be long * radioactive * till you’ll remember this song * will you remember this song? * listen to the interference from a far off power source * ignore my inner voice * so you will tune me in * hear me out * hey I’m gonna be * radioactive * watch me decay * radioactive * i got nothing to say * radioactive * i know i won’t last long * radioactive * but you’ll remember this song
snowed in
by Kyler England
we got snowed in * in our little love den on the third floor in Brooklyn * and we got nowhere to be * it’s just you and me baby and our bodyheat * oh it’s so cold outside * come on and rev up the fire ragin’ in the room, yeah * melt into me now * evaporate our every need into rising steam * because the wind may blow, the temperature fall * as long as i’m with you * let it snow to 6 feet tall * as long as i’m with you * the world can freeze and i don’t care at all * as long as i’m with you * as long as you hang up the do not disturb sign * break out the candles and red wine * and soon we’ll be feelin’ fine * and don’t you dare answer the phone * cause now that i got you alone i’m not letting you go * no i’m not letting you go no no * CHORUS * as long as we are snuggled in * skin to skin * we’ll hibernate until a later date * and when the birds begin to sing we’ll know it’s spring time * but for now, as long as * we got snowed in * in our little love den on the third floor in Brooklyn * and we got nowhere to be * it’s just you and me baby and our bodyheat * so come on and heat it up with me * CHORUS * let it snow, let it snow, let it snow * as long as i’m with you * as long as I’m with you let it snow
broken arrow
by Kyler England
we meet in the usual places * you don’t recognize me * you don’t even lift your eyes to see * that vacant lot of your face was once a garden in bloom * it seems you’ve surrendered to the gloom * i don’t know when this started, your willing descent * is all your hope discarded like an arrow broken and bent? * all i wanted you gave to me * left yourself emptied, emptied * i reach for you where you last were seen * but all i found was nothing, nothing * you’re like a waning shadow of yourself * i don’t know what to do * i miss the part of me that lives in you * i don’t know when this started, your willing descent * is all your hope discarded like an arrow broken and bent? * CHORUS
distraction
by Kyler England
i am petrified baby * my love is liquified, it melted * where is my solid ground to stand on? * love is a hologram that escapes me * you drive me to distraction * and i am willing to go * you drive me to distraction * with a love like i’ve never known * you were my constancy baby * lost in a fantasy, i wandered * drifting i search for some kind of landmark * cause love’s compass has faltered and sent me spinning * CHORUS * no one ever told me that love was gonna be easy * but no one ever told me temptation could be so sweet * CHORUS
laika
by Kyler England
little chosen one * catapulted to the sun * you boldly went where no man had gone before * for weeks your body held on * waiting for the moment to come down * to see the faces you loved just one more time * you were up above the world so high * like a diamond in the sky * gave your life for humankind * what a view it must have been * so far from home and never to return again * the mission fell to you * the danger you faced was nothing new * so brave, always saving us from ourselves * CHORUS * it was the fall of 1957 * a new star was lifted into heaven as your body fell to earth * little laika was it worth it? * CHORUS
distill
by Kyler England
i cried again today * tears they vandalized my face * dried upon my cheek * and they left a salty trace * leading no place * leading to no place * if only love were so easy to distill when feelings fade * i’d burn off the liquid of your love until the crystals of myself remained * but even then my heart it would be stained * separate my life * into before and after you * eradicate the echoes * and count on silence to be true * that’s how i’ll get through * that’s how i’ll get through * CHORUS * the hardest thing i’ve ever had to do * is say goodbye to you * i loved you for so long i got tangled up inside * with you stitched across my soul how can i ever be untied? * i got nowhere to hide * i got nowhere to hide * CHORUS
big city boy
by Kyler England
stuck in my apartment all day long * it’s been raining since the dawn * i miss the heat and the sunshine of back home * but home isn’t where you are * moved to the city at twenty-two * and it’s a far cry from where i was born * that’s one thing you seem to forget * cause you can take a girl to the city * and you can love her with all your heart and soul * but you can’t make up for what she’s missing * she needs more than you to be whole * but you’re my big city boy * you’ve never known anything more * you got radio waves and skyscrapers swimmin‘ in your head * but what about the blue sky? * my big city boy * come let me show you the world out there * you might be surprised at how much you like it * i wish i could make you understand * i need a little green just to get by * in this dirt poor place i’ve found no roots * so won’t you take this girl from the city * and we can drive all day down the country roads * this is the life i’m used to living * where empty space can make you whole * but you’re my big city boy * you’ve never known anything more * you got subway lines and concrete highways runnin‘ under your feet * but what about the cool grass? * my big city boy * come let me show you the world out there * you might be surprised at how much you like it * for all of my life north carolina * you’ll always be my home even though i left you * cause when the city gets me down * all i gotta do is just close my eyes * but there’s just one thing you’re missing * where’s my big city boy * you’ve never known anything more * you got convenient stores on every corner and not a moment to spare * but what about the simple life? * my big city boy * come let me show you the world out there * you might be surprised at how much you like it
breathe again
by Kyler England
i slip beneath the surface * it’s calm and quiet down there * where i can dissolve all the poison of worthlessness * escape until i come up for air * so i can breathe again * it’s over now the panic has passed * but i will have to leave you soon * i don’t know how long this solace can last * responsibility suffocates * i got differences i can’t reconcile * i’ve had enough, grab my boots, hit the concrete * i gotta get outta my skin for awhile * CHORUS * last night i left my sweetness somewhere * the morning was bitter to taste * i spent all day dredging for it * but what a waste * hey you gotta swallow it down * you gotta swallow it down * CHORUS
the one
by Kyler England
love won’t you look my way * right now i need you to stay * it’s the middle of the night * the rest can wait till the morning light * i’m so in love with you * you know i’d do anything for you * so if you need someone to run to * and if you need someone to hold you * and if you need someone to bleed for you, to die for you * i will be the one * love please forgive me my doubts * at the time my faith had all but run out * where else was i to turn so lonely and so hurt * i’m so in love with you * you know i’d do anything for you * CHORUS * love why’d you leave me alone? * it was the worst day of my life * but how could you have known? * cause when i needed you dear * you were anywhere but here * i’m still so in love with you * and i know i did everything i could for you * but when i need someone to run to * and when i need someone to hold me * and when i need someone to bleed for me, to die for me * who will be the one?